sorry about your mum leslie. i assumed she was ok as you hadnt posted. i have my fingers crossed for you. i have passed on all the good wishes

just got back from visiting my mum............today she was a little better than yesterday, but obviously this is only temporary. today the doctors decided to withdraw any oral medication as very soon mum may not be able to swallow. she is having a pump driver fitted for the morphine. mum is still drinking and today she ate a mars bar and a yoghurt!! she is finding it very difficult to talk now. she is awake for a minute then asleep for 30 minutes. she is a bit muddled now and keeps thinking that her oxygen isnt working and keeps pulling the mask off. she is becoming very grumpy and agitated. she is able to wave to me when i am leaving which is reasuring. i feel mum will still be here on Friday, but who knows. nearly two weeks ago we was told that mum had days not weeks...but my mum is like me, she is very determined and fiesty. its horrible to say it but its a waiting game now. mum has had enough, she is slowly becoming trapped in her own body. we really hoped it wouldnt happen like this.....**** happens

 

Sara, don't expect miracles at this stage..just pray for some peace for your Mum. You can cope with the rest of it.

x Jean

 

JD i gave up expecting miracles a long time ago

i dont know what is keeping mum going she wants to go and is ready, it cant be her time yet.

 

maybe its her loving family

 

ahhhhhhh that was nice. its hard to leave her sometimes. its nice for her to see someone there when she wakes up

last night she gave me a slow wave as i left her, that will stay with me forever

 

Addenbrooks is brill, my mother-in-law had breast cancer, they tried a new trial treatment. shes been 2 years in the clear now so they do a good job.

Have hope Sara and keep smiling. That wa if it goes either way you still have happy memories.

Hope you have success.

 

Thinking of you Sara, and your mum and family.
Our love to all.
Anthony, Ange & Ben xxx

 

mum very upset today. she is very unsettled. she moaned at me for not changing the water in her flowers. she is able to speak but only very slowly and not for long. i worry about her being in a room on her own as the staff are not always around. i often spend ages looking for a nurse for my mum so i worry what happens when i am not there

mum cant move her right arm and leg. she has also lost a lot of weight that she put on from the steroids so she looks more like my mum now. she asks for me to put perfume on her, she still has her dignity for which i am grateful for. i think she will be around for a few more days yet. she doesnt want to be, i hope she gets her wish

 

Will you please, please give her a big hug from me and a kiss. Tell her I loved talking to her and would have loved to have met her
Hugs to you hun, hang in there and phone whenever you like

 

thanks lesley

mum has had a bad night, very unsettled. the hospital rang early this morning to let me know it could be today

 

****, I've not read all this thread, but know only to well what you and your Mum are going through now.

I wish you well.

 

Desperately sorry to hear that Sara, as ever my best wishes to you both.

Les

 

Sara, as ever I am thinking of you. Keep strongxx

 

Sara, this thread is a very special one. It must be one of the few threads that makes you stop and think!
Thinking of you & your Mum.

 

Still thinking of you and your mum Sara, reading through the thread now at the stage your mum is at brings back alot of memories for me, your mum is lucky to have you as it is so hard to keep going through everyday visiting and seeing the person you love basically disappear in front of your eyes,I would dread the phone ringing at nights or through the night and afterwards I was always questioning all the 'if's' and 'why's' and even for weeks afterwards I was still thinking of a course of treatment just because for 3 weeks my life was like a robot, get up, get ready, go to the hospital, stay all day, go home, go to bed, then the same everyday.
Big hugs to you and your mum, I don't know what else to say really, just that I think about your situation everyday. xxxxxxx

 

i log on nearly every day to keep up with this story... sorry desperatly sorry for you Sara, god knows what you must be feeling.. i have this to come, my dad is terminal with cancer, under going some treatment at the moment to try to prolong his life which is making him grouchy and poorly, but to look at him you wouldnt know he was suffering from anything, he is at home, but in and out of hospital, couple of major ops for bowel cancer over xmas, we were told it was removed and all clear, only for it to be found on his pancreas, and in the last 2weeks on his lungs..

really really feel for ya girl...

 

Sara i have just read all the 16pages about your mums illness its a horrible thing cancer .My Dad had bowel cancer four years ago and a foot of his bowel removed .He goes for a cat scan every year and blood taken .He had this done quite quick with him having private medical cover and being seen by a consultant and operated on by one aswell .Then chemo afterwards for insurance so nothing comes back .See with him getting these things done private he can ask the person doing the cat scan if there is anything there which is good .Really really really feel for you .Kevin

 

thanks for all your encouragement everyone. it means a lot. some of you are going through the same pain as me but you still take the time to post up and offer support.........i am very grateful

just got back from the hospital. mum is very bad today. i asked the doctors to up her sedation as she is very distressed. she was calling out for her mum all day and we wasnt able to console her. she doesnt really know who we are now. she cannot swallow anymore so everything has been withdrawn. i am glad that she hasnt withered away to nothing and because of the weight gain she had she doesnt look too bad, but she is. her eyes are very dark and her skin looks very pale. we have told her that she must not hang on anymore. the staff are supprised that she is still with us........i am not, but i wish she would just let go now.

i dont know what tonight will bring, i just hope it brings mum some peace

 

sara - it brings tears to my eyes everytime i read this thread at the moment - you are all so very brave and strong for each other it makes me wonder how my sisters and I will be when my mums situation worsens to your mums state.

Peace will come, I am sure, in due course - upping the medication will possibly help it to ease your mums pain and anxiety in the meantime.

 

how is your mum coping, has she had the chemo? i remember that your mum was given the same 6-9 months that my mum was. we thought that we would outlive the prediction, but mum got an infection because of the steroids and that is what got her. if the had an immune system we may not be in this situation now. its been so fast. i am so glad we did so much in the short time we knew about her illness. a lot of her health was taken up by the radiotherapy, but it gave her hope and gave her something to fight for.

make sure you dont take anything for granted, every day is so precious xxx

 

Sara......as all the others say my thoughts are with you.
I lost my mum last September and it was totally devastating....something you probably don`t want to hear but I feel I must tell you. (Sorry )

I do believe that 'someone' comes to get them from the 'other side' and this may be your nan....I hope you find a little comfort in that...
I wont go into details as my feelings are still very raw and wish you all the best in the coming few days and weeks....there is no miracle cure to help you through this but you will certainly find out who your true friends are....

If you want to call on me then feel free....as they say..."been there, done that, got the t-shirt".
Love to you all....and I`ll say a special prayer for you tonight...

Joan..x..x

 

thanks joan

my nan is still alive but i dont think she knew who she was calling. i assumed its because its natural to want your mum

 

You know what, my Nan was having a conversation with my Grandad when she died. He had died 2 years prior. And she was smiling
I agree Joan

 

Sorry Sara...didn`t realise...ooops.
I am pretty sure it was my dad that came for my mum, he died when I was 24, and my mum last year when I was 40....so at the ripe old age of 40 i have no parents and boy sometimes I feel cheated.....enough about me..

I hope it`s sooner rather than later for all of your sakes, but it ain`t gonna be easy whenever but I am praying they take her peacefully in her sleep...

OMG gone all spiritualist now .....so as you can gather I do go to spiritualist church sometimes....enough said...

Hugs and kisses and a shoulder to cry on....
Joan.xx.xx

 

Sara,

This thread had touched such a large amount of hearts. You can see that from the number of posts, and the content of people’s messages. It has evoked a lot of memories, feelings and emotions, some happy, some sad, for you and many of the message writers. I am sure that it has also struck a chord with a lot of people who have chosen, for whatever reason, not to post as well.

At this stage, there are not too many other sentiments that can be expressed that have not already been stated. It is a dreadful thing for anyone to have to experience, and everyone’s prayers and hearts go out to your mum, to you, and to your family at this time – especially today after reading your latest update.

Along with everyone else here, my thoughts are with you.

Mark

 

mum (vicky) died this morning at 7.15am in Lister Hospital Stevenage




this is how i will always remember my mum, on holiday in May. we had the most fantastic time and i will always treasure the memories. i think this picture sums it all up

 

My sincere condolences sara

 

So sorry Sara. No more pain or disscomfort.

Now is the time to accept help and support from those closest to you.

 

Sara,

My thoughts are with you and your family

 

Very sorry Sara, best wishes to you and your family at this difficult time.